If I knew then what I know now…

December 7, 2013 – Just another day in a long string of days. Or so I thought…
A month earlier, well four weeks and one day to be exact, I suddenly found myself single again and, while I wasn’t exactly devastated or heartbroken, I was rather shocked by both the abruptness and the manner in which this information was conveyed. Please understand, I have never harbored any ill will towards this gentleman, and still think quite fondly of him. He was, and will always be, a dear friend held in very high regard. Anyway, I was bored, and in an oh-woe-is-me mood, so I logged onto a certain site and reactivated my profile.

And my life changed.

For the better.

For the very best.

Yep. We met on a dating site, and then spent almost two months messaging before finally meeting in person. During this time, we became friends, sharing good and bad, happy and horror, silly and sad. Both of us living for that notification, alerting that there was a message from the other. Both of us going batty trying to figure out how to finally meet, while dealing with conflicting schedules. Both of us in denial over where our friendship was heading.

February 1, 2014 – Talk about a game changer…
When the doorbell rang, I honestly thought it would be like any other day hanging out with a friend. I was so completely wrong.

We laughed and hugged and talked about anything and everything, just as we had for weeks, and I was lost. In a good way, but lost nonetheless. And then when he asked to kiss me… Nope. Sorry, not spilling any juicy details; there are some things I hold sacred, even when being open and honest. :-P For whatever reason, our relationship has been on the fast track since long before that first day, and it’s quite alright.

Those three little words were very difficult to hold in, for us both, and finally saying them was only a formality, while plans for our future were understood even before being verbalized. All along we were, and still are, instinctively on the same page.

Today…
There’s so much still to come that I’m not quite ready to share and it’s good. All of it so very, very good. No matter what tomorrow brings, I am happy today. I am finally safe and secure. I have met my match: someone who is brave enough to love me, secure enough to stand up to me and confident enough to let me be me. Most importantly, I love, and am loved by, a man who is kind, sweet, gentle, caring, generous, funny, intelligent…

A wonderful dream come true.