I’m back, BABY!

For weeks I’ve been trying to figure out just how to start this post, as it IS my return to blogging, only to keep postponing any effort to actually write. I think the biggest obstacle has been knowing I will not only be playing catch-up for the past few years, but also reliving a very difficult year that I am still dealing with the ongoing side effects from.

You would think this wouldn’t be as huge of a deterrent, but only I know what was going through my mind at the time as well as what thoughts still dwell there. Digging into the grey matter. Spreading tendrils to create even more uncertainty and fear.

Man, that REALLY makes it sound hopeless, despite the very real fact that I’m on the other side of the whole experience – mostly – and I AM STILL HERE!

Some days it’s difficult to remember just how far I’ve come or how much I’ve accomplished in the past four years. Especially on my bad days where all I can seem to do is focus on what is wrong, and despair over how many more years there are until I’m declared cured. Whatever that means.

Anyhoo…

This return will serve to help me sort through all that has happened during my breast cancer journey, in addition to documenting all of the side effects I’ve personally experienced, where I am now, and what I have to look forward to – good AND bad.

Yep. You read that right. I said cancer.

What people don’t seem to realize is when you are going through treatment for breast cancer, specifically, once you’ve completed chemo and/or radiation and/or had surgery, you’re still not finished. There are always more doctors’ appointments and testing and medication and “scanxiety”…

And that’s where this blog is going to help me. Hopefully, it will also help others, be it by educating or by just making them – you – feel a little less alone on the journey.

I’m not sure yet how much I’ll be sharing, or how graphic I’ll become (I even have some pictures!), so please be patient with me. Also, please feel free to ask questions about anything; I will do my best to answer as honestly as I’m able. If it’s something I’m not ready to discuss, I will do my best to explain why I’m unable to answer at that time.